Complain!

[silverrush95]

Damn. Just.....dammit. Talked to the guy last night. As I thought, he had no feelings for me. Saw it coming and all that, but I still don't know why I'm so torn up about it. I mean, I've had feelings for this guy for over a year now, but still. God I can be such a girl. At least we're still friends.

I apologize for the emo-ness. This is more of a vent post than anything.

Yeah don't worry about it. I had this one girl I knew she had no feelings for me but I was crazy about her I talked to her this one time and she said no I was so crushed I was in a lol depression for for about a week and no venting it killed me so trust me venting helps allot.

Yeah, it does seem to help a little. My issue with venting is that after I calm down a bit, I look back, and I get embarrassed over what I may have said/posted. Then, I'm one of those people that always thinks "They've all got problems of their own, without worrying about mine." Ah well, I try not to worry about it too much.
Music actually helps a lot, since I almost never vent. After I talked to the guy last night, I was listening to Skillet for almost 2 hours straight.

[kylel]

Yeah I was just like you but because all that's happens in my life I don't care anymore about my feelings I care more about the happiness of others I was selfish aliases doing what would make me happy without giving the feelings of people around me and of what I learnd from my experience the more u suffer the more you learn to not suffer again.

[Shade Leshyr]

League of Legends has been down... all...damn...day... *twitch, twitch* All day... it's insane...

[kylel]

League of Legends has been down... all...damn...day... *twitch, twitch* All day... it's insane...

Ohh I was goin crazy all morning unitill I got diablo 3 but anyways DANM YOU RIOT GAMES. Riot with there shitty new updates take away from my gaming time...mumble,mumble,mumble I WILL MURDER RIOT but I still live them.

[silverrush95]

League of Legends has been down... all...damn...day... *twitch, twitch* All day... it's insane...

Times like these I'm glad I've never played LoL.....
But don't worry, I know that feel all too well.

[aires163]

I bought a machete for 11$ today. I need to make a few modifications to it so its actually stable. When I swing it it feels as though the handle is going to snap and the dull blade will fly through the air.

[kylel]

Shhh exams this week shat Ohh well if I fail I will still pass with at leased a 60 but still shat exams.

[arinot]

DEAR GOD WHY ARE PONIES SO EASY AND ADDICTIVE TO DRAW?
WHYYYYYyyyyyy

... I think I still owe Scramjet a pony... he hasn't been here a while... Ima do it anyway

[kylel]

Ahh end of the year oh how i hate you like it cuz no more school but hate it becvaus eit goes down as another year all alone.

[JoshCF1]

On Christmas Day of 2011, my father told us that he and my mother were getting a divorce. My father is the one who wanted it, and to this day I still don't know why. A few months earlier, Xerox took over the plant where my mom works. She's been given a much larger work load and an even shittier pay. Because of this, we need to move. We tried selling our house, but because of this town's awful real estate market, we could not. Even if it was marginally better, nobody wants to manage a four storey house anymore. So now the bank is kicking us out. My mom, brother, and I must now rent a small home until presumably my brother and I move out. This home is also up for sale, so if someone buys it, we'll have to find a new place to stay. But, odds are it won't sell anyway. My father is also filing for bankruptcy for unbeknownst reasons to me (he's been very vague with all this), and because of the implications on my mom for this, she must file for bankruptcy as well. I don't believe things can get much worse than this, I wouldn't be surprised though if they did.

I'm going to let The Wall and many of my other records echo through this house one last time.

[Italo]

On Christmas Day of 2011, my father told us that he and my mother were getting a divorce. My father is the one who wanted it, and to this day I still don't know why. A few months earlier, Xerox took over the plant where my mom works. She's been given a much larger work load and an even shittier pay. Because of this, we need to move. We tried selling our house, but because of this town's awful real estate market, we could not. Even if it was marginally better, nobody wants to manage a four storey house anymore. So now the bank is kicking us out. My mom, brother, and I must now rent a small home until presumably my brother and I move out. This home is also up for sale, so if someone buys it, we'll have to find a new place to stay. But, odds are it won't sell anyway. My father is also filing for bankruptcy for unbeknownst reasons to me (he's been very vague with all this), and because of the implications on my mom for this, she must file for bankruptcy as well. I don't believe things can get much worse than this, I wouldn't be surprised though if they did.

I'm going to let The Wall and many of my other records echo through this house one last time.

Jesus, Josh. I don't know what else to say to that besides God, I hope everything turns out like a movie. All nice and perfect. I doubt it, but I can't imagine it not getting better, I mean, nothing stays shitty forever.

[kylel]

On Christmas Day of 2011, my father told us that he and my mother were getting a divorce. My father is the one who wanted it, and to this day I still don't know why. A few months earlier, Xerox took over the plant where my mom works. She's been given a much larger work load and an even shittier pay. Because of this, we need to move. We tried selling our house, but because of this town's awful real estate market, we could not. Even if it was marginally better, nobody wants to manage a four storey house anymore. So now the bank is kicking us out. My mom, brother, and I must now rent a small home until presumably my brother and I move out. This home is also up for sale, so if someone buys it, we'll have to find a new place to stay. But, odds are it won't sell anyway. My father is also filing for bankruptcy for unbeknownst reasons to me (he's been very vague with all this), and because of the implications on my mom for this, she must file for bankruptcy as well. I don't believe things can get much worse than this, I wouldn't be surprised though if they did.

I'm going to let The Wall and many of my other records echo through this house one last time.

Yeah man during my life i have realized that things dont last forever and things will look up it might take a week, a monthe a year but what matters is to keep your spirits up u need to talk send me a message.

[JoshCF1]

Yeah man during my life i have realized that things dont last forever and things will look up it might take a week, a monthe a year but what matters is to keep your spirits up u need to talk send me a message.

Jesus, Josh. I don't know what else to say to that besides God, I hope everything turns out like a movie. All nice and perfect. I doubt it, but I can't imagine it not getting better, I mean, nothing stays shitty forever.

Thanks for being there, both of you. I do have things that keep me going though, keep me happy. I still have a loving family regardless, friends, and a special someone too.

[kylel]

Yeah man during my life i have realized that things dont last forever and things will look up it might take a week, a monthe a year but what matters is to keep your spirits up u need to talk send me a message.

Jesus, Josh. I don't know what else to say to that besides God, I hope everything turns out like a movie. All nice and perfect. I doubt it, but I can't imagine it not getting better, I mean, nothing stays shitty forever.

Thanks for being there, both of you. I do have things that keep me going though, keep me happy. I still have a loving family regardless, friends, and a special someone too.

Ahh havin someone in your life always helps my friends have said that but I wouldent know that.

[silverrush95]

I hate to whine about this when others, like Josh, are having much worse issues, but I just need to say something. Tonight, July 1, 2012, 2:02 AM, is the 2 week mark that I haven't been able to get over that guy. I don't know why, and I really need to. I mean, I thought this would be like all my previous crushes, where I just got over it within the day. What's so different about this one? That it was a guy? That he's one of my best friends? I want to know why it hurts so much. The night he told me he didn't feel anything towards me......that was the first night I had ever really cried in a very long time. It felt so good to actually cry for once, yet it hurt so much at the same time. About two days after that night, I found out he was in a relationship with some other chick. I never felt my heart drop like that before. I didn't break down or anything, I just.......I don't know, felt bad? Since then, I haven't gotten as worked up about it. That is, up until a few nights ago. I was just sitting in my room, figuring out my phone, when I read something his girlfriend had posted on his Facebook wall. Stupid that it was Facebook, but still I felt the tears come back. Just about everything she had typed was almost everything that I thought about him. Strange, adorable, cocky, lovable, only some of the things that made me think of him. When I read "I get to call you mine," that's when the tears started flowing. I guess it was because I'd probably never have that luxery.

A few nights ago, before reading his girlfriend's thing, I had gone to sleep over at another friend's house. We went to the local bowling alley to play this game called Pump It Up. A few minutes before we arrived, my friend told me that he invited the guy there, too. I wasn't angry or sad about it at all. It made me feel happy, knowing that I'd get to see him again. We played, he'd "shadow" when I was playing sometimes, etc. I was happy. Then I found out that he was also spending the night at my friends place. You can imagine how happy that made me. We bought some food, got to the house, played video games, stayed up all night, all the good stuff. It was the happiest I'd felt in a really long time. Then, the night I went home, I read his girlfriend's post. Just like that, I was all depressed again.

I guess I just needed to vent about it. I mean, I don't understand why this is so hard. I've never been so.....torn up about things like this before. Like I said, usually if the person I had feelings for wasn't interested, or they got into a relationship, I'd normally get over it within the day. This is taking two weeks and counting. Why is this so hard? What's so different? Is everything finally getting to me? Was it more than just simple feelings for a person? Why does this hurt so much? I just want to know why. Why?

Please, just ignore some of this. It's pretty much just a vent post, and there really are more important issues at hand without people worrying about this. Besides, the whole relationship thing is getting old for some people, I'm sure.